As I was lying in bed AWAKE at 1am, it just hit me. If everything goes according to plan, we'll be at Disney World exactly 6 months from today. Now, we love going there and the kids can't wait, but all I can do is dread it. I keep thinking, "will I wait in line to ride one of the rides with the kids, only to find out that I can't fasten the safety harness?" or "will I capsize the 'It's a Small World' boat?". I know I'm stretching it a bit, but you get the point. The longer I lay there, the more I thought about it. So I did what any normal person would do in the middle of the night; I got up and went straight to the scales. And WOW-I've finally surpassed my all-time highest weight, with the exception of my pregnancy weight. I used to jokingly say that I was trying to gain enough weight to be able to have gastric bypass surgery. That is the worst joke EVER, especially now that I'm not too far away from that weight. I have struggled with my weight since I got married over 13 years ago, and I have finally hit "rock bottom", if you will. So it's time to do something about it.
The reason for this post is to hopefully help others as I help myself. Trust me, I'm serious about this; I don't think I've EVER started a diet on a day other than Monday before. :-) My goal is to change my lifestyle. God has blessed me so much. I am not on any medication right now, other than for headaches. If I don't do something though, I'm sure I will be on daily meds. I am probably going against what most diet experts say, but I refuse to set a weight-loss goal. I don't know how much weight I can lose in 6 months. I don't even know if anyone will read my blog. But if I post on here that I am going to do something, I need to assume that millions will see that I am "saying" that I am going to do it. The definition of accountable is 'an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one's actions'. Accountability. Even if nobody is physically holding me accountable, I will more easily hold myself accountable. And I don't know about you, but if you've ever struggled with your weight-and no, I don't mean worrying about 5 lbs-I mean REALLY struggled, it helps to have a buddy. So I'll be your buddy. We can do it together, with God's help! And I've always heard that no prayer is too small! What do you have to lose...except weight??
One day at a time. So today, I will walk for 30 minutes. I don't expect to run yet(unless something is chasing me:-)), but I am ok with taking baby steps. I will keep 3 bottles of water at my desk at all times. Ugh, I dread the water, but it is a MUST. I don't usually eat breakfast. Today, I will FORCE myself to eat fiber cereal. I MUST have my coffee, but I use equal and lite creamer. For lunch, I will eat a garden salad with Light Raspberry Vinaigrette dressing-that stuff is awesome!! For dinner-I will eat grilled chicken, a side salad, and a plain baked potato. I'll have 2 snacks today, including grapes and 1/2 an apple with peanut butter. And that is day 1-Dear Lord, please help me get through it!
Oops, almost forgot my disclosure...I am not a medical expert-please seek care from your doctor before beginning any diet plan. :-)
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